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Did I Ever...?

 "Did I ever hold you in my arms, look you in the eye, tell you that i do... if I never did it, I was only waiting for a better moment that didn't come.  There never could be a better moment than this one.  This one."

♥ So ummm... yeah...

♥ Not much is up.  Kinda feel crappy, a little emo-ish I suppose.  I'm not really doing anything.  I'm starting to clean up the house, so that's about it.  Matt's at work, so I'm just alone here with my music.  I've been listening to sad Beatles songs.  Ugh... "Jealous Guy" by John Lennon always gets me feeling sad.  Especially since it kinda feels true to me.  I dunno.  I'm just a jealous guy.

♥ Figured out my school situation.  I have my classes picked, so I'm good to go.  They're all at decent times and at decent places.  I only have one class in Rocket Hall, but I have an hour gap after it, so I can walk to Field House without worrying.  The other classes are all at FH.  I'm taking Comp II, Japn Culture, Japn, and Math for Liberal Arts.   Ha ha... even the far left have their own math class apparantly.

♥ I only work 6 hours next week.  It sucks; however, maybe they'll keep me if I do well on Black Friday.  Still it's a bummer.  They said they had to cut 28 hours, so everyone got a few hours taken off.  It's okay, though.  Once the next semester starts, I'll get loan stuff & it'll be a little easier to survive.  I won't have to borrow money constantly from everyone.

♥ I'm starting to work on my research paper.  It'll be about how gay marriage should be legal.  I already found a few interesting facts;  I guess that in an essay by this woman, Carol Booth, the states that allow gay marriage, or at least recognize it and civil unions, are higher in the educational levels and lower in divorce rates.  On the other hand, the more conservative states are slipping educationally, and their divorce rates are fairly higher than average.  It's pretty interesting.  I reallly do believe gay marriage should be legal;  it'd boost the economy definitely, and just think of the progress we'd make in the world.  I think Japan allows gay marriage, but they don't have the strong Christian overtones in everything; they rock the Shinto & Buddhism.

♥ Well that's about it.  I'm going to start cleaning up and making the place look nice.  I'm out.

"I didn't mean to hurt you.  I'm sorry that I made you cry.  I didn't want to hurt you.  I'm just a jealous guy.  I was trying to catch your eye.  Thought that you was trying to hide.  I was shivering inside.  I was shivering inside.  I'm just a jealous guy.  I'm just a jealous guy."

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Hello Again...

» Not much is up.  I've been going to school and trying to work.  I started working at Gamestop now, but have only been working one day a week.  I'm seasonal, so they really don't need me and that explains the whole lack of hours.  School's okay.  I've been doing okay.  I have a research paper due soon, so that's my biggest concern.  Other than that, things are pretty peachy.

» I really haven't had much time to follow along with current events.  I heard the Health Care bill passed, but needs to go through Congress I believe, so that'll take another year.  I really want it to go through; I believe the only reason people are even throwing fits about Obama is because he's actually changing things.  And the things he changing are the things that keep the upper class in America the upper class.  I say go for it;  the middle class is a dying breed, along with the hopefuls and sweethearts.  We've become a pitiful, apathetic country.  Obama has a chance to stir up some sort of awareness in us.  The youth had already accepted they're going to be broke, poor, filthy workers gnawing at the toe of the corporations, but when given the chance to make things better, they scoff at it and just walk away. 

» I popped a vessel in me eye.  It hurts a little bit, but I'm not too worried; it's not giving me any sight problems and is conveniently hidden.  I apply eye drops every hour or so, just to keep it from feeling irritated and scratchy.  I suppose it's okay; I looked at a few sites online and they said eye drops do help a bit.  They also said it would take almost two weeks for it to go away.  Bugger.

» Matt and I are doing well.  He's been busy, working almost 40 hours a week, and going to school, but he's doing okay.  We'll be together for two years this month; I'd like to get a tattoo to celebrate.  It would be an Om right on my neck;  we want it to be a matching thing.  It's better than getting a name tattooed on me;  that's so silly.  His friend keeps bringing up marriage;  I don't want to get married just yet.  I don't even understand the need for it.  Matt says we get a tax break, but really, is that all we get when we take the plunge?  What if we break up; who can afford divorces anymore.  A tax break certainly couldn't cover it; although I really don't see divorce happening.

» I've gained a lot of weight, but I am losing it.  We've been kind of broke lately, so we haven't eaten as much.  This is a good thing, but also a bad thing.  It sucks being broke especially when you gotta pay bills.  It doesn't matter; I get paid my huge $40 paycheck tonight.  So half will go to gas & the rest to probably food.

» I got the Grand Theft Auto IV soundtrack; I love it.  I've been downloading soundtracks lately; mostly Silent Hill.  I have them all except Origins and SH 1.  Oh well; they're releasing a remake of SH 1 called Silent Hill: Shattered Memories.  I can't wait!  It's coming to the Wii and PS2, and it looks great!  I need to finish Silent Hill: Homecoming first!  It's so hard; I'm stuck at this one spot.  I also past it, but a nurse (the fifth nurse in a row!) sliced me when I was about to attack her.  UGH!!! It's so frustrating sometimes, but I love it.  Pyramid Head is my sexy man.

» Well, that's about it for now.  Maybe I'll actually try and update this more often.  I'm out.  Jaa, mata!

"Cast all the pain to the tourniquet that binds me"

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Just Dropped In

 Not much is up.  I haven't been on here in a while.

Matt & I are doing pretty good.  It'll be two years in November, so that's mighty groovy.  We've been trying to hang out with each other more, but we've both been working so much & the shifts have been so random.  But we went to the movies last night & saw "Funny People."  I liked it.  That's a really good movie.  Everyone should go & watch it now that I blessed it.

I'm starting school this month.  The 24th.  I have to admit I'm excited.  I'm such a nerd, but I do miss school.  Plus I got so many scholarships that I don't really have to pay for anything. So yay!! Awesomeness.  I took out one loan to help pay for my books.  Hopefully I don't need to take out another one.

Work's okay.  They're stilling bitching about Sears Credit Cards, & I'm just not caring.  I've been kinda "office Spacing" it.  lol You know, not caring & singing rap & shut.   Damn it does feel good to be a Gangster.  Yes it does.

We bought Fatal Frame 3.  Very creepy & hard game.  But Matt beat it, which is awesome.  I love the Fatal Frame series.  They're amazing, & so scary.  Imagine being stalked & attacked by these angry ghosts & having just a camera to take pictures of them as your only weapon.  Screw that.  I'm sticking with my Master Sword & Hylian Shield. ha ha

Well... that's about it.  I felt like updating for no reason.  Especially since no one really goes on this site anymore.  At least that's what it seems to be to me.  I'm out.

"I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in."

Ouch!

So I'm losing weight.  lol. Hooray!  I bought some Slimquick and a yoga dvd/mat set.  Plus I've been working so much, I have only been eating once or twice a day.  Yay!  I love it.  I've lost 3 pounds so far.  17 to go to reach my Super goal!  7 to go to reach my okay goal.  Hooray.  I'm really excited.  Hopefully I'll be okay and lose the weight and keep it off for the summer.  I wanna wear a bikini!

I gauged my ears tonight.  Ouch.  I put in the 0g and had to fight like hell to get it in.  It started to bleed.  It hurts really bad.  So bad, in fact, that I'm going to take it out, put the 2g back in, and be done with it.  I'm not willing to shove this thing into my other ear.  And to those who think I'm a pussy or whatever.  Fudge you.  Besides, I got my nipples pierced, so I'm allowed to be a chicken about my ears. ha ha

I feel really good about myself now.  I think Matt's kinda so-so.  He doesn't seem so enthusiastic about me losing weight.  He says he thinks I'm pretty the way I am now, but I don't think I'm attractive.  I've gained a lot of weight after graduation, and I wanna get back down to my happy weight.  He just seems indifferent about it.  But he'll be happier when we go look for a new swimmie-suit.

I have like no money.  I gotta save what's left to pay for the dish and my car insurance.  Fun.  At least I get in a week.  This week's gone by pretty fast.  I'm kinda glad, that means that I'll get my next paycheck quicker. ha ha.  Yay!  I only work 3 days next week, but I'm gonna give a day to this girl because I worked today for her.

Well that's it really.  I'm kinda tired.  I'm gonna try and go to sleep now.  Hopefully I can sleep on my bloody ear.  It's not bloody anymore(yay), but it's still throbbing.  Matt's already asleep, so he's got the bed nice and warm for me.  yay!  I'm out.