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Hello Again...

» Not much is up.  I've been going to school and trying to work.  I started working at Gamestop now, but have only been working one day a week.  I'm seasonal, so they really don't need me and that explains the whole lack of hours.  School's okay.  I've been doing okay.  I have a research paper due soon, so that's my biggest concern.  Other than that, things are pretty peachy.

» I really haven't had much time to follow along with current events.  I heard the Health Care bill passed, but needs to go through Congress I believe, so that'll take another year.  I really want it to go through; I believe the only reason people are even throwing fits about Obama is because he's actually changing things.  And the things he changing are the things that keep the upper class in America the upper class.  I say go for it;  the middle class is a dying breed, along with the hopefuls and sweethearts.  We've become a pitiful, apathetic country.  Obama has a chance to stir up some sort of awareness in us.  The youth had already accepted they're going to be broke, poor, filthy workers gnawing at the toe of the corporations, but when given the chance to make things better, they scoff at it and just walk away. 

» I popped a vessel in me eye.  It hurts a little bit, but I'm not too worried; it's not giving me any sight problems and is conveniently hidden.  I apply eye drops every hour or so, just to keep it from feeling irritated and scratchy.  I suppose it's okay; I looked at a few sites online and they said eye drops do help a bit.  They also said it would take almost two weeks for it to go away.  Bugger.

» Matt and I are doing well.  He's been busy, working almost 40 hours a week, and going to school, but he's doing okay.  We'll be together for two years this month; I'd like to get a tattoo to celebrate.  It would be an Om right on my neck;  we want it to be a matching thing.  It's better than getting a name tattooed on me;  that's so silly.  His friend keeps bringing up marriage;  I don't want to get married just yet.  I don't even understand the need for it.  Matt says we get a tax break, but really, is that all we get when we take the plunge?  What if we break up; who can afford divorces anymore.  A tax break certainly couldn't cover it; although I really don't see divorce happening.

» I've gained a lot of weight, but I am losing it.  We've been kind of broke lately, so we haven't eaten as much.  This is a good thing, but also a bad thing.  It sucks being broke especially when you gotta pay bills.  It doesn't matter; I get paid my huge $40 paycheck tonight.  So half will go to gas & the rest to probably food.

» I got the Grand Theft Auto IV soundtrack; I love it.  I've been downloading soundtracks lately; mostly Silent Hill.  I have them all except Origins and SH 1.  Oh well; they're releasing a remake of SH 1 called Silent Hill: Shattered Memories.  I can't wait!  It's coming to the Wii and PS2, and it looks great!  I need to finish Silent Hill: Homecoming first!  It's so hard; I'm stuck at this one spot.  I also past it, but a nurse (the fifth nurse in a row!) sliced me when I was about to attack her.  UGH!!! It's so frustrating sometimes, but I love it.  Pyramid Head is my sexy man.

» Well, that's about it for now.  Maybe I'll actually try and update this more often.  I'm out.  Jaa, mata!

"Cast all the pain to the tourniquet that binds me"

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Just Dropped In

 Not much is up.  I haven't been on here in a while.

Matt & I are doing pretty good.  It'll be two years in November, so that's mighty groovy.  We've been trying to hang out with each other more, but we've both been working so much & the shifts have been so random.  But we went to the movies last night & saw "Funny People."  I liked it.  That's a really good movie.  Everyone should go & watch it now that I blessed it.

I'm starting school this month.  The 24th.  I have to admit I'm excited.  I'm such a nerd, but I do miss school.  Plus I got so many scholarships that I don't really have to pay for anything. So yay!! Awesomeness.  I took out one loan to help pay for my books.  Hopefully I don't need to take out another one.

Work's okay.  They're stilling bitching about Sears Credit Cards, & I'm just not caring.  I've been kinda "office Spacing" it.  lol You know, not caring & singing rap & shut.   Damn it does feel good to be a Gangster.  Yes it does.

We bought Fatal Frame 3.  Very creepy & hard game.  But Matt beat it, which is awesome.  I love the Fatal Frame series.  They're amazing, & so scary.  Imagine being stalked & attacked by these angry ghosts & having just a camera to take pictures of them as your only weapon.  Screw that.  I'm sticking with my Master Sword & Hylian Shield. ha ha

Well... that's about it.  I felt like updating for no reason.  Especially since no one really goes on this site anymore.  At least that's what it seems to be to me.  I'm out.

"I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in."

Ouch!

So I'm losing weight.  lol. Hooray!  I bought some Slimquick and a yoga dvd/mat set.  Plus I've been working so much, I have only been eating once or twice a day.  Yay!  I love it.  I've lost 3 pounds so far.  17 to go to reach my Super goal!  7 to go to reach my okay goal.  Hooray.  I'm really excited.  Hopefully I'll be okay and lose the weight and keep it off for the summer.  I wanna wear a bikini!

I gauged my ears tonight.  Ouch.  I put in the 0g and had to fight like hell to get it in.  It started to bleed.  It hurts really bad.  So bad, in fact, that I'm going to take it out, put the 2g back in, and be done with it.  I'm not willing to shove this thing into my other ear.  And to those who think I'm a pussy or whatever.  Fudge you.  Besides, I got my nipples pierced, so I'm allowed to be a chicken about my ears. ha ha

I feel really good about myself now.  I think Matt's kinda so-so.  He doesn't seem so enthusiastic about me losing weight.  He says he thinks I'm pretty the way I am now, but I don't think I'm attractive.  I've gained a lot of weight after graduation, and I wanna get back down to my happy weight.  He just seems indifferent about it.  But he'll be happier when we go look for a new swimmie-suit.

I have like no money.  I gotta save what's left to pay for the dish and my car insurance.  Fun.  At least I get in a week.  This week's gone by pretty fast.  I'm kinda glad, that means that I'll get my next paycheck quicker. ha ha.  Yay!  I only work 3 days next week, but I'm gonna give a day to this girl because I worked today for her.

Well that's it really.  I'm kinda tired.  I'm gonna try and go to sleep now.  Hopefully I can sleep on my bloody ear.  It's not bloody anymore(yay), but it's still throbbing.  Matt's already asleep, so he's got the bed nice and warm for me.  yay!  I'm out.

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Gotta knock a little harder!

Well, I'm feeling a little better now since that last stupid post. ha ha  I was feeling a tad self-conscience. I met my weight goal.  Hooray!  Now I just need to lose 10 more pounds to accomplish my real goal.  I'm gonna try to lose 5 pounds a month, so I won't rush it, but also, I'll be able to maintain a little easier.

I've been eating healthy.  Yogurt, grapes, broccoli, salads, etc.  Plus drinking more water.  I've drink like 8 cups.  I think that's what the daily amount calls for right?  I heard 8 glasses, but hey, cups work too.

I applied to UT.  Hooray again!  Things seem to be looking up for me actually.  I should start buying some school supplies.  I dont' know why, but thinking about going back to school gets me all giddy. ha ha  It just seems like I'm a true bookworm and intellectual at heart. I'm not saying I'm smart, but I love to learn.  For the most part I pay attention in Matt's classes.  Especially in Japanese.  I've slowly been picking up words here and there. ha ha 

But I'm going to try to be an English teacher.  I like books.  I want kids to like books, or else I'll beat their asses! AHA!

Matt and his friend Brennen decided that we're all going to go to Japan next summer.  Which will give us about a year or so to save up.  How much?  A whole lot that I will probably never be able to save up.  I can barely keep money in my account right now, how the f will I be able to save up like $5000 for Japan within a year?  I don't know.  I trying to save money right now.  But I always seem to take it out of my account when I need things.  It wouldn't be that big of a deal if I got paid weekly.  But I get paid every two weeks, so unfortunately I need to save a little better.

Oh well, I guess it won't be a big deal once I start saving up money and crap a little better.  I'm good with money for the most part.  I save up enough to pay the bills so I'm covered, but then I kinda go crazy.

Well, anyways, that's really all that's been going on.  I want to get my nipples pierced, but krikey they're expensive.  $60, that's not including the jewelry, which is usually like $10.  So for 2 it's $20.  That'll come to $80. ha ha.  Damn!  Well, I'll save up for that too. ha ha.

I'm out for now.

emo rant

This is gonna be short, sweet, and to the point.

I hate anyone that's prettier than me.  I hate girls that are taller, thinner, with longer hair, and nicer bodies.  I hate them.

This is only because of my sadly low self-esteem and insecurities.

-I'm out.

... I'm also jealous of Asian chicks because everyone seems to lust after them.